Okay, this sibling rivalry stuff is going to kill me. My gosh, one of them is just 3, the other isn't even a year old yet, and already it's starting. Jonathan can't stand it when Matthew gets near his toys, crawls into his room, pulls his hair (well, I guess I can't blame him there....), and apparently, now he doesn't even like it when Matthew cries. Well, Matthew's crying is inevitable. He is, after all, a baby. I just don't deal with this very well. Jonathan doesn't like the crying, so he fusses at Matthew, which upsets Matthew more, he cries louder, which irritates Jonathan, who fusses louder, and you know where this is going. And it ends with me screaming at Jonathan. Then he starts to cry. And then I feel like someone has punched me in the stomach because I've now made my angel sad. Sometimes I feel like I just can't win. Evenings are worst - when the kids are tired, and I'm at the end of my tolerance. I tell myself to not expect too much of them, they are, after all, just tiny little people who still have a lot to learn. Somehow, somewhere, I've got to acquire some more patience, or at least a better way to deal with this stuff - it's just going to get worse. What's going to happen when they're 10 and 8 and giving each other black eyes????